Traveling with the Currents: 2015

Well, my first week at MMS has come to a close and I can only reflect on the positive things that have been happening in my life. My mom and I have this deal where I text her with a positive from every day. It makes me reflect on the day and see the good in even the little things that happen in my life. With my first week, I have been doing little things, but they have all been so that we can prepare for the coming school year. We have had two different groups at MMS and have had two more join us. One of the groups came to bless us with a check from the money they had raised at VBS. Even though I am an intern, these groups have blessed me. They have been doing the tasks that may seem little or even daunting, but are appreciated when they are done.

On Monday, I was able to meet with several people and make up a little bit of a plan. I have a little more of an idea of what I will be doing when I am here. Like I have said before, I am going to be doing a variety of tasks. One of the things that I will be doing is working with the child sponsorship program. I am unsure of what that looks like right now, but I am excited to be a part of that. I will be working with the toddlers, working in the school, and doing playground duty. This is a small list of what I am going to be doing once everyone returns. I will know more once everyone returns back to campus.

As many know, I will be “home” in August, but I’m really in Lincoln for the week. I will be taking my intensive class. It is a class that is 3 credits, but I take it all in one week. I am truly excited to be taking the class, but I am bummed that I will have to leave MMS for a week and a half. The class is for my spiritual formation minor that I just picked up last spring semester. The children come back August 8^th and I’m leaving the day before to come home for class. I will be excited to come back to more people on campus and being able to build more relationships.

It may seem like I’m not doing much right now, but I feel that God is moving within me already. Some know that I am a type of person that I need to know what I am doing or at least have an idea of what plans are. That really hasn’t been the case here and I have been trying to get used to it. During the summer time, everything is really laid back. The one thing that is set in stone for my schedule is that I’m helping some girls with summer school. This looks different every day, but they are working on math and reading. It’s a two-hour slot that we work with them and help them improve in those subjects.

Today, we were able to have church in the chapel. It was amazing to be able to worship in there. The other awesome thing was that I could feel God challenging me with some different things. As Christians, we are called to be all in and not to be lukewarm with our faith. Either we are going to fully follow what God has called us to do or we are going to halfway follow Him. At times it may seem like I’m following God fully, but I need to be honest. There are definitely times where I question what God is calling me to do. Questions of “Are you sure this is what I’m supposed to do?” “God, I’m not sure this is what I should be doing?” “But God, I want to be comfortable!” “God, I don’t want to leave my family and friends.” In Genesis 12, God calls Abraham to leave the place that he knows to a place where he will become a great nation. I’m sure that Abraham had some questions and I’m sure he was scared, but he did what God had called him to do. From today’s messages, I want to be able to jump into situations where I’m sure I won’t be comfortable or I won’t want do it, but full heartedly say, “Yes, Lord I will follow you.”

Being transparent to people can be hard and it can be challenging, but it can be rewarding if you allow it to be. Sometimes I struggle with allowing others to see my heart or even what I am truly feeling. I know that I’m not the only one that struggles with this, but there are people that are willing to help you overcome this. Here is me being transparent for a minute. The week before I left, I was having all kinds of emotions. Anywhere from excitement to nervousness to being scared. Now that I am at Mountain Mission School, I am absolutely in love with the place and the ministry they are doing. A side note, as my mom and I talked about where I was going to do my internship, she kept telling me that I needed to look into MMS. I agreed that I would and I had been in prayer about it. I can remember my mom telling me several times that I may realize once I’m down there that it wasn’t the place for me. I had been praying about my internship and whether or not He would take me overseas. I have seen oversea mission work and I felt that it was time to see what stateside missions looked like. I knew before I even stepped foot on Mountain Mission campus, I knew that God was calling me to this beautiful place. A place where you can feel God’s presence and you know that the people that serve here are filled with His love.

As I close up this blog, I have one last thing to say. There is a song that I have heard multiple times and the first time I heard it was when I was in high school. I probably sang it in high school, but never really listened to the words or even meant what I was singing. How many times do you just sing the song to sing it? Or do you truly mean the words that are coming out of your mouth? The song is “My Desire” by Jeremy Camp; it has been speaking to me in the last couple weeks. The whole song really gets me, but this is the part that I want to share with you. “This is my desire. This is my return. This is my desire to be used by you. You want to be real. You want to be emptied inside. And I know my heart is to feel you near. And I know my life. It’s to do your will.”

I want to be “all in” with my faith and not lukewarm. I challenge you to decide what you want to be doing with your life. Are you going to live it lukewarm or are you going to say “I’m all in God.” Are you going to make up excuses for the next time God calls you to do something or are you going to say, “Yes Lord, I will follow you!” I know what I will be saying.

Blessings,

Ally

"My Desire" Jeremy Camp

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W777s4HuHOI

Many people are asking me when I start my new journey. Sometimes I want to be funny and say, “not soon enough,” but the truth is I leave in one month. I am moving to Grundy, Virginia on July 11^th. I am so excited to be able to do my internship with a ministry that I full heartedly believe in. Mountain Mission School will be my home for about five months. I am excited to see how God is going to use me there and also how He will stretch me. I’m excited to build relationships with the children and even the staff down there. For all the internships that fell through, I know that there was a reason for that. God has really been working on me lately, even in ways I would not imagine.

I have honestly been challenged with living the simple life. While I was in Uganda and Ethiopia, I saw people who had less than I did and they were much happier than I was. Yes, I am happy in life, but am I content with what I have? No, I don’t feel content because the American lifestyle tells me that I need materialistic things to make me happy. Honestly, it sickens me how much I have in my room and most of it I no longer use or even need. Some things that are souvenirs that I believed would have so much meaning, but are almost pointless to me now. I look at it as stuff that is collecting dust. Most of it will go in a yard sale this fall in order to just get rid of it. I am sick of living the American lifestyle of thinking I need a lot of “stuff” in order to be happy. Just to show you how much of the American lifestyle I used to live, I have an example. Before I left for my trip, I got a brand new pair of Asic running tennis shoes. When we were in Uganda, we were there during the rainy season. As we did house visits, I stepped in a huge puddle of water. I “thought” that I had ruined my shoes. I complained to my mom as we were walking and she proceeded to tell me that she would buy me a new pair for Christmas. As we returned from the trip, I looked at my mom and told her to just throw my shoes in the washer. I realized that my shoes were not ruined, but just needed a little cleaning. To say that a little part of me died inside when all the red Ugandan clay came off is an understatement! That clay was something that reminded me of what we did there and the lives that touched my heart. I have realized that I don’t need half the stuff that I have in order to be happy or content. I can’t wait to get rid of most of my things this summer. I watch people that buy so much just because they can and wonder why.. Why do they need all of that to be happy with their life? Is it to show that they have so much going for them? Any more, I could care less that people have more money than I do. I could care less that I have a little amount of things.

This year in chapel, we have had some really good sermons. There was one this semester that really challenged me. It didn’t hit me until after and to be honest it was one of those chapels I halfway listened to. It was a sermon that I need to go back and listen to fully. The basic concept of it was that we shouldn’t collect the glory, but give it back to God. Here is why it has stuck with me more than some of the other sermons. The guy giving it asked everyone to stand on the pew, if we felt comfortable doing that. He proceeded to say that this is how we view ministry sometimes, that we are higher. He then asked us to get down and then lay on the floor. I questioned it at first, but then realized there was a purpose. As everyone in the chapel was lying down, he proceeded to say that this was the way we should view ministry. A lot of times, we accept the glory that we get from how well we are doing a ministry or with what we are doing with our life. I have realized that it isn’t our ministry in the first place to accept the praise for how well it is doing. That is God’s ministry and we shouldn’t be accepting the praise without directing it up to Him. I have been wrestling with how to respond when someone will say something about my life and ministry. It is hard to direct the glory back to him and not keep it to myself. I believe that a lot of times I want people to see what I am doing so they know, but that shouldn’t be the sole reason. I need to realize that it shouldn’t matter at all of what I am personally doing.

I have had a lot of people give me encouraging words lately. Words of how proud they are of me or how they love watching what I am doing with my life. I have to say that all of these encouraging words mean a lot to me. They mean more than I could ever express and I can only say thank you! I honestly would not be where I am today if it wasn’t for certain events in my life. Life changing events that led me to realizing that I was running away from the idea of being a missionary and trying to do something where I made money. The world tells us that we should get this job because you make this amount of money. In the end, I want to be able to do something that is going to matter for the Kingdom. I want to be able to show kids love that they may desperately need.

Some have been asking me what I will be doing while I am at Mountain Mission School or where I will be staying. I don’t have all the answers for the questions that have been thrown at me, but I can answer some with the best of my ability.

What is MMS?: This is a place for at-risk youth to have a place to feel safe. They serve as a home, school, and church to over 200 children from over 60 different countries.

What I will be doing?: Well, I will be doing a little bit of everything. I am hoping to be able to see what it is like to be in the office part. I might be working inside the classroom as an aide. I might be in toddler hall playing with the little kids. I could be helping out in the kitchen if it is needed. Honestly, if they tell me to go clean a toilet, I will be doing that!

How long will you be there?: My last day will be Monday, December 7^th. I wanted to be able to have a full experience of an internship. I will be at MMS when they have the Indiana Christmas party and then I will leave the next morning for home. I will be home a couple times during the internship because of class and a couple other events, but I will be able to spend Thanksgiving away from family. This may sound awful, but as a missionary, you are not able to see family when you want to. My family and I are still working out the details, but I hope to be able to spend Thanksgiving at MMS without family.

Where will you be staying?: I will be staying on one of the floors of girls. I am not exactly sure which floor. When I was down in March, I was asked if I saw myself as a mother figure or a big sister. I said big sister, so I am hoping to be a mentor to the girls on the floor I live on.

Ways that you could be praying for me:

· As I am doing my internship, I will be taking an 8 week Psychology class. I ask for prayers on how to balance everything in my life. I know how to balance ministry with homework.

· Pray that my time there will be fruitful and that I would be able to apply things I have learned at LCU to my internship.

· Pray that with all of the pouring out into others lives that I would be able to fill myself back up.

· Pray for Mountain Mission School and the kids there. Pray that the ministry could be fruitful and that they would be able to reach more children.

· Pray that as I am at Mountain Mission that God’s will would be done.

· Lastly, Pray that I can be patient until I leave.

Thank you everyone for blessing my life and that I have been able to learn from people around me. I am super thankful for the people that have helped God redirect my desires for the future. When I was younger, I never would have believed that I would have huge heart for the Fatherless or even for the orphaned children. Everyone has a purpose, whether that be to help those children or to support someone that is working with those children. Thank you to the people that have helped guide me through the major life events that have shaped me to be who I am today. I am thankful for all the opportunities that God has allowed me to serve Him and His people.

I will be keeping everyone updated while I’m on my internship.

Until next time, blessings!

Ally

Here are some pictures of MMS.